Sunday, September 10, 2006
i jus hate my life and eveything thats going on around me..
welcome to my life~
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finished building the glider already..finally its over..getting cuts all the time..how nice~
have jus suffered from 8 stitches last thursday..and hopefully no more..
luckily my mom couldnt be bothered abt it..if not i am so dead..
coming to think of it..it was purely distractions and i find it stupid..and i see no fun abt it..
cant see how ppl laugh their heads off abt it..smart eh?
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anw..i am finally back from camps and sad to say..holidays are ending..
i think i did enjoy myself in some parts of the camps..
watched fast and furious tokyo drift again in camp and also too fast too furious..
i find too fast too furious kinda boring..but overall..its nice~
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nothing much happen to me during the whole holidays bahx..not say nth much..
maybe i jus cant be bothered to think abt it..coming to think of time spent doing some things..
i find it a total wastage..
was thinking abt some stuff happening after since semester 2 starts..
finding myself doing alot of things tt i didnt noe i would..and indeed i've learnt from the mistakes done and got most of it corrected..some are jus mistakes tt are unforgivable..which i find nth wrong widd..
from those mistakes..i find myself not able to understand how others think and feel even by a lil bit.. fine myself simply diff from them..living in a completely diff world from them..
ppl get things done easily..me? i took the long way out..getting nth done but mistakes made..
ppl get what they wan easily..me?i fight hard for it..
they find happiness easily..me? i struggled to find mine..
gotta admit that indeed diff ppl have diff way of doing things and have diff thinking from one and other..i am jus weird
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[to her]
congrats..finally u found someone u like eh..after 3 whole year..
finally can get my hands off you and let you walk on your own..
and as for me it s finally time to get my own things done and sorted out..
and its finally time for me to face my won problems and try to get them over and done widd i hope..beside for tt problem[u shld noe]..think i will try not to think and bother abt it first..
but study hard for exams first..yupps..
but meanwhile..before i can do it..i think i wun be going down to club until exams r over..
theres nth much for me there now..except for problems and more problems..
simply find myself wasting my time doing things i shoudnt..i indeed enjoyed my time spent lah.. but..when its time to let it go..i have to..will go down this sat i think..to get some stuff..
and after tt i be studying for exams already..u shld noe my studies sucks..
i needa get them done widd..but if u wanna go out still can ask me..i be glad to do so..
and meanwhile..its time for you to study..you can live 5 weeks w/o going to club..
after tt you can go there everyday..i wun stop u..
meanwhile u can still meet up widd HIM to study tho..i think he be glad to do so too..he will love it lah..anyhthing sms me bahx..will reply asap..
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[to her laogong]
weis..happie le hor..finally got her smitten to you..told you you would make it lerhx..haha..
anw..glad to see her happie..haven seen her this happie le bahx..give her to you lerhx..
finally got a burden off my back..*relieved*
love her hor..dun cheat her feelings..make her happie..or you get it from me..
and thanks for ur doggies..they are cute..=)
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Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you Because of you
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No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
Welcome to my life
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*ximin
`if i were to know tt the truth hurts so much..i rather not know it..
`i cant change the direction of the wind..but i can adjust the sail..
`I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh Every day of my life
__here without you
|Sunday, September 10, 2006|
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
back from life~
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hmm..having been tutoring a lil primary four girl since ytd..
she's so funny lah..laugh non stop de..haha..raymonds sister..anw..
shes abit slow in learning.but very enthu to noe things..so cool lah..
its my 2nd time tutoring..now..its my job=)
twice a week..8 times per month..$80.. kinda underpaid..but nvm lah..as long as having fun=)
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now having two jobs..tutoring and my daddy shop..really having fun bahx..
its kind of a escape road for me..working time makes me think less abt other things..
work makes ppl think less i think..i dun wanna be brooding over things i shldnt all day long..
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hmm..school have been okie bahx..jus cant stop falling aslp in class..
haven been slping well for days..after seeing the stupid creature on net..hais..
feel so ridiculous abt it..shall sleep well tonight..i hope~
been busy abt the coming up flying frenzy com and all the test..cant stop studying lah..
i really really dun wanna drop to na..or retake sec 3 life..no way...
flying frenzy is abt 2 weeks away..and we haven even start building yet..so dead lah..
really hope we'll be able to complete and compete on time..
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[the one i have loggerheads widd all the time:]
heys..abt the thing you mus really consider wor..think of the consequneces pls..
but if you really wanna do it..than do it lo..have fun=)
eh..abt tt day..dunwanna tok abt it le..and you tag alot lehx..spamming me izzit..haha..
eh..hate it when you say alot of meaningful things..change my views..=X
okies..dun wanna write so much..later you "spam" me again..haha..
have fun in sch lo..i will try to slp aeap..
you didnt set good example as a mommy wor..own self slp so late..wth..
hao lahx..end here for ya..
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[to the one who is suddenly so caring:]
hey daddy..wah..how come suddenly so good..come tag my blog all the time..haha..
ur effort appreciated=) hao lah..now will treat u slightly better=X
eh..rmb the blueblack u gave me on sat..haha..its still there lah..same shape,colour,size..
lol..haven improve..but not pain liaox..win liao lor..i slightly scratch u nia you pinch me..
hmm..nvm lah..bu tong le..next time hao le than let you pinch again..
eh..any idea how to make it better..very ugly lehx..aiyoyo..
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[to 16.25]
eh..welcome to my blog=) thanks for reading n tagging..
ur tags are encouragement to me truely=)
found slightly better reasons to live life well and meaningful..thanks=)
will learn how to not brood over thing i shldnt..and live life well enuff to feel fair=) takecare~
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shall end here today..bye~
*ximin
`i cant be as perfect as u think i am..but i will live life to the fullest..no matter you like it or not..
`got really so much to tell you.but i really really dunno how to put it across..
__here without you
|Tuesday, August 22, 2006|
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
