had a terrible night last night and this afternoon.. got scolding out of nth ytd by my family..then got embarassed to the whole class by my form/maths teacher..crap~ this is what happen..
Ytd night: I was happy to see my dad home ytd! i haven seen him for 2 mths le..its his b'day..so we celebrated at home with everysingle siblings at home..thats how the thing happen.. i needed to change my plan as soon as possible because of my 2nd sister BF..because the line i using is given by him after he got a new line and a new phone..he wanted the line back for his line..so i need to change line..i tot i could get a new hp..so i asked my 1st sister..
my dad overheard us and tot i wanted to get a second line and a new phone..he started scolding me..i just let him scold and didnt want to talk back coz its his b'day..so nvm..out of the blue..he started to compare me with 2 china girl in the NEWSPAPER! i was like super pissed off and sad..
Everything was ok..then my 3rd sister add oil into fire..say that the whole holiday i spent all my days out and computer..didnt see me study or do work..i was upset by what she said..i spent my days out coz i couldnt study at home..and i spent my time on computers doing my projects!she didnt noe..i didnt blame her..
my 1st sister wanted to help me but instead scolded me after she heard hat my 3rd sis said..i tot she was always the one who doted me and care the most for me..i was surprised and heartbroken..my 2nd sister didnt say anything lor..only wanted me to ge a new line asap..
i could stop crying the whole night after what happened at home..my dad even wanted me to move out..but i didnt..i knew he was serious abt it this time but i didnt bother..he didnt give me allowance today..i know he still angry..theres nothing i could do but stay at home and do my work..was really heartbroken about what happened ytd nite..
Today in school: Celebrated valentines day and total defence day.. had gift exchange during home period and fire drills during the 4th period..was quite bored in class..didnt realy wanted to talk today coz disnt have the mood too..my friends around me jus could stop talking abt the presents and bfs..i jus slack all the way.. was informed to go for maths remedial..dint want to go but still went..did some questions of the first test we had in jan..only given 20 mins for 20 questions?i only did 5-6.. was waiting for teacher to explain the rest because i didnt noe how to do..while teacher was going through..my friend asked me how to do a question coz he din understand..i turned back to teach him lor..the teacher saw and called my name..then say
"ximin,what you doing?why arent you listening..you are always not listening in class..i've checked ur results k..you are good for nth..so you better listen!"
i was so pissed off lor..my previous year results maybe abit bad..but i got only 4Cs and the rest are 3Bs and 2As..that dosent mean i am good for nth lor..i go As ok..the whole class started staring at me and pointing fingers..i nearly cried..wanted to talk back..but didnt want to delay the class..so i kept quiet in class..and jus listen to her talking "maths"..
ran home straight after school..trying not to be angry..din want to bring my anger and sadness home..was feeling abit better now..but no longer have a feel belonging at home anymore..feeling like a extra at home..
gtg..talk tml..buhbye~ ~ximin *Does my family really care for me?i cant find someone to talk my heart to at home..i rather be alone..
`him
`bright/dark colours
`captains ball
`be a listening ear
`music for life!
`shopping
`going out with frens
`slack:)
`stargazing
`beach life
*[[____ hates :( `-//*
`eating
`People touchin my hair
`To be nagged at
`Backstabbers
`Troublemakers
`People lying to miee
`things not going the correct way
`forced to do thing i dun wanna do
*[[____ wishlist :/ `-//*
`to be widd him
`change to b a better person
`get good results
`dun nneed to study
`a adiddas/puma bag
`e converse shoe
`formal clothes
`more bears=)
`new wallet
`that op file
`more friends
`a room to myself
`live a life of freedom
`L7 or w800i=X
