~totally lost directions -------------------------------- hey guys..its mothers day today..when everyone celebrate the joy of a mom and the whole family spents time tgt..eating dinner..spending time with their mommy..mine was jus different..so different..was really hoping to see my sisters to be home and celebbrate with mommy..but none was home..was really upset lah..i quarrelled with my dad ytd over some little stuffs and he didnt allow me to go to church anymore..i broke down lah..i cant live w/o going to church..seeing my friends and cg members..i really cant..i went to church as usual lah..trying to set aside my family for awhile..went home to pei mommy for dinnerat 6..no one was home except for me and my mommy.. mommy was really upset to see no one home..had dinner with her and things went on well until she came back from coffeeshop to get some stuff..she started scolding me and screaming at me lor..upset that its mothers day when every family having fun celebrating except for ours..my famiy seems to be shattered into many pieces lah..i listen to her scold and started crying lor..was really scared..lost and confused..i really dunno what to do lor..i listened to her..then she jus went to her room lor..i was upset too lah..for not spending enuff time with her..i have been really tired out by all the things going on lah..in school and my family..
i always hated to stay home for the whole day because i think its quite boring..my mom dun understands me..everyday will jus nagg at me..i tried to be patience and jus let her nag lor..as long as shes happy i dun mind..but after while i jus got sick of it..its like school have been really tiring..and always hoped to have some peace at home but i dun lah..she jus dun understand lor..i really dunno what to do..totally lost directions..
for 3 days..my family have been quarrelling over minor stuffs and i really got tired of it..seeing my mom got scolded by my dad..i got no idea what to do..i try to spent time with them but the same thing still happens lah..i really hope they wil stop quarrelling lah..i dun wan them to be upset and angy..i rather be the one suffering..i really dunno lah..jus hope that this will jus go off soon..got to go le..buhbye..*ximin~i really hate my present life..really..i dunno what to do now..jus lost here alone..
`him
`bright/dark colours
`captains ball
`be a listening ear
`music for life!
`shopping
`going out with frens
`slack:)
`stargazing
`beach life
*[[____ hates :( `-//*
`eating
`People touchin my hair
`To be nagged at
`Backstabbers
`Troublemakers
`People lying to miee
`things not going the correct way
`forced to do thing i dun wanna do
*[[____ wishlist :/ `-//*
`to be widd him
`change to b a better person
`get good results
`dun nneed to study
`a adiddas/puma bag
`e converse shoe
`formal clothes
`more bears=)
`new wallet
`that op file
`more friends
`a room to myself
`live a life of freedom
`L7 or w800i=X
