Friday, June 30, 2006
hey guys..
back to update..
had ne survival camp ytd..was quite okie lahx..jus v sian and slack..things move on so slowly..although there was fun here and there..but still..i wasnt feeling right ytd..keep having the feeling of emptyness in my heart..somethings jus dun seem to be right..but i couldnt figure it out..
thursday ended at 1am..after all the briefing and stuffs..
went star gazing with brenda at e fitness corner..the sky was lovely..
lotsa stars..so far its the second best i ever saw=)
did alot of thinking while star gazing..i jus love the feeling of being under the dark night sky..
the best time to sort things out in the mind..did quite alot of thinking ytd..
but still haven finish sorting out yet=(still have a lil here and there lo..trying my best alrdy..
been feeling kinda weird these few days..i dunno why..
jus feeling that i am not myself anymore..
i couldnt make myself happy even for awhile..i may look happy and stuffs..
but i am not lahx..sorrie to say that..but i really really not happy at all..
wasnt in the mood i guess..but seriously..i hate the feeling=(
i hated the life of sadness and darkness..hope to get out of it soon..
i dun wanna brood over the past anymore..but neither do i wanna look foward for the future..
jus wanna live everyday to the fullest..being happy and do thing w/o regrets..
have been living in 14 years of regretfulness..and i wanna leave it..have a brand new life..start all over again..jus wanna have a simple life=)
anw..
got my specs already=) its really nice..but i dun have to wear it often..
only during lesson and watching movies..=) hope i can get to wear it soon..
i think i look nice in it..maybe not...but well..
hmmm..been missing outa lot of stuff here and there..i am not sure too..
but i just having the feeling of being left out alone..
no longer having alot of frens around caring for me..i cant even feel my family warmth already..maybe i am used to the life of being alone..left out..and whatever more..
i duunno..i jus miss my friends..daddy and kors..mommy and jiejies..
ni men dao di zai na li..=(
hmmm..i guess i have more things to sort out now..gtg soon~
buhbye~
*ximin
~star-gazing jus rocks my life..
~have so much to say..but i just dunno how to put across....
__here without you
|Friday, June 30, 2006|
Friday, June 30, 2006
