i am really really tired out now..super tired..i got no idea what to do..ah well..-days have been packed with diff thing each day..school is as tiring as usual..although i can see others working even harder than me..i feel really left out in life..friends have been neglected one by one..i am leaving things behind me..living in a world of tiredness..a world of boredom..-i really couldnt be the ximin that i used to be..i miss it alot..but..things jus arent going in the way i wanted it too..its fated lahx..i am trying my best to keep my friends ard me happy..making sure that they arent left out..but i am still missing out things here and there..and i hate it lah..in the end i am the one being left out..jus starting to hate this life i am going true..i hate myself too..well..this describe well abt me now:
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Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
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i really miss the happie times i had last time..the laughter i had in my mind all the time..the seemed to have vanished..i am no longer happy now..maybe i am sometimes..but i just hate to be alone..i noe i have to sometimes..just dun like the feeling of getting left behind..i jus cant be perfect like u guys wan me to be..i trying my best already..but it dun work lah..what to do..hmmm..no one will understand.no one will..-time rally flies bahx..a few more days daddy will be back from spain alrdy..abt 8 days more..i really miss him alot..hope he comes back soon..really have so much to say..hope things will be the same when they comes back..-[daddy]hmm..so long never talk to you liaox..hope u have been doing fine in spain..ur hand injured le..mus take care of it kies..and rest well arhs..dun make mommy and me worried sick abt u..faster come back from spain kies..then pei wo go out buy things again=)will ask mommy along de..haha..u have been the best daddy ever le..always there for me..you wo zhe zhong wan pi de nu er..mus be very tiring hor..haha..promise to be ur guai nu er and i will do it de lahx..wun be so naive and wilful liaox..=)takecare ahs!-[mommy]heys..spending days in school widd u have been really great lahx..although mommy sometimes very naggy..but i appreciate it lots..i jus love the time i quarrel widd u over lil things..=Xopps..haha..
u have been a great mommy lahx..=)u arhs..dun miss daddy too much le kies..i noe how u feel..it applies to me too kies..dun worry lah..they will be back in 8 days 17 hours..lol~..hmm..wanna go ps again..i saw sth i wanna buy le..meet up soon kies..and take care!=)will be a nicer nu er from now on..=X-[kevin korkor]dunno u will be reading this mahx..but still..days spent widd ya ard is really nice lahx=)u have been a very great korkor..i noe i very notti..always bully u..but its fun=X opps..hehe..go out dinner widd mommy and daddy more often kies..wait for daddy to come back=)and u arhs..ur back still pain mahx..next time becareful can..dun play till injured..take care arhs kor=)-end here first..will update more tml bahx..if i got time..=)buhbye..*ximin~[::.*reality hurts*.::] 
