Sunday, September 10, 2006
i jus hate my life and eveything thats going on around me..
welcome to my life~
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finished building the glider already..finally its over..getting cuts all the time..how nice~
have jus suffered from 8 stitches last thursday..and hopefully no more..
luckily my mom couldnt be bothered abt it..if not i am so dead..
coming to think of it..it was purely distractions and i find it stupid..and i see no fun abt it..
cant see how ppl laugh their heads off abt it..smart eh?
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anw..i am finally back from camps and sad to say..holidays are ending..
i think i did enjoy myself in some parts of the camps..
watched fast and furious tokyo drift again in camp and also too fast too furious..
i find too fast too furious kinda boring..but overall..its nice~
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nothing much happen to me during the whole holidays bahx..not say nth much..
maybe i jus cant be bothered to think abt it..coming to think of time spent doing some things..
i find it a total wastage..
was thinking abt some stuff happening after since semester 2 starts..
finding myself doing alot of things tt i didnt noe i would..and indeed i've learnt from the mistakes done and got most of it corrected..some are jus mistakes tt are unforgivable..which i find nth wrong widd..
from those mistakes..i find myself not able to understand how others think and feel even by a lil bit.. fine myself simply diff from them..living in a completely diff world from them..
ppl get things done easily..me? i took the long way out..getting nth done but mistakes made..
ppl get what they wan easily..me?i fight hard for it..
they find happiness easily..me? i struggled to find mine..
gotta admit that indeed diff ppl have diff way of doing things and have diff thinking from one and other..i am jus weird
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[to her]
congrats..finally u found someone u like eh..after 3 whole year..
finally can get my hands off you and let you walk on your own..
and as for me it s finally time to get my own things done and sorted out..
and its finally time for me to face my won problems and try to get them over and done widd i hope..beside for tt problem[u shld noe]..think i will try not to think and bother abt it first..
but study hard for exams first..yupps..
but meanwhile..before i can do it..i think i wun be going down to club until exams r over..
theres nth much for me there now..except for problems and more problems..
simply find myself wasting my time doing things i shoudnt..i indeed enjoyed my time spent lah.. but..when its time to let it go..i have to..will go down this sat i think..to get some stuff..
and after tt i be studying for exams already..u shld noe my studies sucks..
i needa get them done widd..but if u wanna go out still can ask me..i be glad to do so..
and meanwhile..its time for you to study..you can live 5 weeks w/o going to club..
after tt you can go there everyday..i wun stop u..
meanwhile u can still meet up widd HIM to study tho..i think he be glad to do so too..he will love it lah..anyhthing sms me bahx..will reply asap..
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[to her laogong]
weis..happie le hor..finally got her smitten to you..told you you would make it lerhx..haha..
anw..glad to see her happie..haven seen her this happie le bahx..give her to you lerhx..
finally got a burden off my back..*relieved*
love her hor..dun cheat her feelings..make her happie..or you get it from me..
and thanks for ur doggies..they are cute..=)
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Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid
Because of you Because of you
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No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
Welcome to my life
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*ximin
`if i were to know tt the truth hurts so much..i rather not know it..
`i cant change the direction of the wind..but i can adjust the sail..
`I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh Every day of my life
__here without you
|Sunday, September 10, 2006|
Sunday, September 10, 2006
